Rampi Says...

Dogs bark! Show the finger and move on!

25 Random things about me!

One more tag! This time by Equi.
25 random things about me! 25 is a huge number. Its gonna be a while. There will be like 10 points which would probably be obvious, if you have been reading my space.

1. I dont forget good things that others have done to me. However insignificant they are. And, I also dont forget embarassment, whatever may have been the impact of it.
2. I used to think/wall stare a lot. But now I dont find time for that. I miss those activities. Probably thats why my blog posts` frequency has come done drastically.
3. "I`m 22, single and I can do whatever I want! No one can say anything about anything I do." This is what I said today morning while shaving, and ended up with a ridiculous style. (I removed it!)
4. I love movies. Any kind! Favorite being Anbe Sivam(Obviously).
5. Those embarrassing moments which I dont forget; I think of them when I drive the bike to work. I cant stand the thought of it and I scream. I just scream. I`m thinking of getting a punching bag to relieve the pressue of embarassments.
6. I love my family.
   
7. I`m a hypocrite. I dont believe in God. But encourage ppl to believe in God. I say ego is the most important thing in the whole world. I still say it is. But, I dont seem to have much of an ego myself. I realised this recently.
8. I have to mention this. I love my nephew. The recent bonding that happened when my sister was here. I miss him.
9. I get high on those momentary satisfactions. Like getting an output at work, or helping a blind person crossing the road, or taking my parents out for dinner.
10. Recently I have started feeling like yesterday happened so long ago. Days go by fast, but yesterday feels like a week before. Probably coz, I do a lot of things in 1 day.
11. I am a great fan of Rahman. Right from the 1st song he composed. I used to be so confined with his music. But now I have enhanced my playlist. Contains a lot more different genres of music. But still Rahamn Rocks.
12. This blog used to be my punching bag, when I started it. It helped me a lot to get rid of my frustrations.
13. I love writing. I`m obviously not a professional. I dont know fancy words. But I like words.
14. I`m a workaholic. There are 2 things a human needs. Money and sex. For both, we have to work for it. Nothing wrong in being a workaholic.(food is a subset of money)
15. I love eating. Whatever it maybe. I can eat and eat and eat. That explains my horizontally inclined physical structure.
16. I cant find topics to talk to a stranger. I just cant say "lovely shoes! where did you get them? oh! that shop! thats near the other shop where I get my jettys!".
17. I miss my friend Ravi. I wouldnt have, if he had gone to US for studying.
18. I love my friends. I seem to have made very few good friends after college. And now, only my college friends are my life.(All guys! Damn you!)
19. I miss being with my sister. Life would`ve been lot more comfortable if she was around. Before the trip she knew nothing about me. But now she knows everything.
20. Every crude injustice thing I see on TV; I dont get annoyed or angry. It just astonishes me the brilliance of the accused. I guess I was born to be a serial killer.
21. I secretly love the attention I get; at work or wherever. I just tend to be proud of myself.
22. I get influenced by people. I work with 2 brilliant minds and I already consider them as my mentors.
23. I cant really think of what will happen tommorow. I just live today. Actually, I just live now.
24. I am God.
25. I used to love water. But, now I love fire.

That was long. I tag none. Let this finish with me.

Tag-a-thon 2

A series of tags! This ones by Rach !

Its about food!! he he...(evil!)

1. One dish you can crave for any given time of the day/ night/ situation?

It astonishes me! Theres nothing in particular! I`m a simple food lover. I eat anything from bread, butter and jam to a full meals... anytime anywhere. I wont mind!

2. One dish you'd never had and would love to regardless of the expense?

The lobster. It always looks tempting. but never had the company to eat it!
People are turning vegetarians. And, I cant eat the whole thing alone.

3. Most expensive dish you've ever had?

I guess it is karimeen pattichathu. Something which I had recently. I think, the outrageous price was coz of the restaurant. The dish was awesome too! I dont remember the name of the restaurant. And i dint pay for it obviously!

4. Most bizarre dish you've ever seen or tasted? Like totally blown your socks off! Makes you gag every single time your lay your eyes on it. (Hope you've got the point by now: P)

Nothing is more bizarre than the karnataka Sambhar. jaggery in sambhar!?? Doesnt make sense! Other than that, I dont get intimidated by the way a dish looks...

5. Your poison?

Food! I eat quite a lot.

6. One a lonely rainy day, your sitting cozily on your sofa, you'd crave for?

Hot Chocolate! Or Amma`s coffee!

7. First forbidden savory you'd crave for while you've been sick?

I dont restrain myself from having anything even when I`m sick. Though, if mom is taking care of me. I get only idly and curd... So I`d just crave for food!

8. Your all time favorite TV snack:

Haldiram`s Bhujia Sev!

9. On your first ever kitchen experience you prepared:

Dosa. The first time it came well. Every other time the shape was all screwed up!

10. After a tiring day at work/ college/shopping/loitering you'd loved to come home to?

Subway tuna sandwich! Come on! I live alone!

11. A cuisine your most comfortable with:

Home!and of course american and italian!

12. A snack which you loved A LOT back when you were a kid and still love it till date?

fry yums! cheap and outrageously hazardous. Dripping with oil! That was all i could get of the 5Rs I get.

13. A dish which your mum makes/ used to which you simply adore?

Lots of them! the garlic chutney, buttermilk kozhambu, tamarind kozhambu, ladysfinger sambhar... honestly lots more!

14. Most expensive dish you ever had?

Q 3!

15. What you're eating RIGHT NOW? or had immediately before?

Now nothing. Just finished eating the idlys amma packed for me!

Just when you thought it was all over...BONUS! (Don't cha love em?) ;)*16. Your friends are coming over on short notice. You have half an hour. How would save your dignity by being hospitable and feed your friends? (Considering you can't take them to a restaurant)

I dont have the apparatus set up to ake anything. I`ll have to order something. And of course! you think they are gonna come to my place for the food alone?

Cool that went smoothly. I wonder how that always happens when it comes to food.
And I tag none!

The lunatic is on the grass...

I quit my job!
I`m committing a suicide.
I feel so happy right now!
I`m eventually gonna die of a deadly disease.
I`m finally momentarily satisfied.
I`m so dependent.
I`m smiling!
I hate myself.
I love myself.
I`m a hypocrite.
The child has grown.
The dream is gone!
I have become comfortably numb!

P.S. Inappropriate title.

Eclipse

All that you touch
All that you see
All that you taste
All you feel.
All that you love
All that you hate
All you distrust
All you save.
All that you give
All that you deal
All that you buy,
Beg, borrow or steal.
All you create
All you destroy
All that you do
All that you say.
All that you eat
And everyone you meet
All that you slight
And everyone you fight.
All that is now
All that is gone
All thats to come
And everything under the sun is in tune
But the sun is eclipsed by the moon.

There is no dark side of the moon really. matter of fact its all dark.

Courtesy Pink Floyd...

Why I can relate to this song so much?
Its unanswered!

Change

Well, I have changed the template...

Change is a good thing, maybe the best of things and good things never die....

Let me know if the new template create a problem, especially the playlist thing.

Songs are pretty soft, definitely wont make heads turn in your offices, so i guess it`ll be okay...

As it is...

The facts being facts...
Good things are good...
Bad things are bad...
no bad thing happens for good and
no good things happen for bad.
when something good happens... feel good...
when something bad happens... face it...
Things are as it is... you and I cant do anything about it...
There is no hidden reason for things to happen... things just happen...
No... its not even close to being a poem...
Just a bunch of incomplete sentences and repeating words...
Just a self consolation/motivation of a sleep deprived individual...

This is my friends photo gallery, which made me smile after sometime... Thanks...

The Endless Tunnel

There seemed to be a faint light at the end of the tunnel. He extended his hands, pointing it to the dot of whiteness. Being used to the balance of his life, the path ahead was too rocky for him. He wanted to lean on the tunnel wall and rest. But he was afraid that he might fall asleep. He kept remembering that he should not fall asleep, as he leaned on the wall and closed his eyes. The moment lasted for a moment. Then, like death, he had memories flowing around his head. The vision of the ghosts he saw in his childhood dreams. The anxiousness when his dad came home. The beauty of the morning sun. The ridiculous education. The awesome winter rains. The parent teacher meetings. The mom`s kisses, the sister`s hugs. The friend fights. The first crush, the first rush of blood coz of lust. The futureless present, the past less future. The recognition of beauty. The realization of music. The first college, the first love, the first break up, the first screw up, the first moment of satisfaction, the first moment of complete dissatisfaction, the first job, the first salary, the first roommate, the loss of the first roommate, the tears, the pain, the unrealized love, the unforgettable moments, the beauty of a child`s smile, the innocence of a child`s tear, the love from the family, the days in no man’s land, the days of exploiting labor, the crooked way to where he was. He remembered everything. He did not cry. He knew he hasn’t seen the worst and best of things yet. He stood up and walked. Towards the light. Extending both his arms, hoping to grab someone or something along the way. He walked to the ends of the endless tunnel.

Rampi Says...

There are only 2 happy moments in a person`s life. One is the birth and the other is the death. The time in between is just the vague memory of the person when he dies.

Tagged...

Adi has tagged. Quite a number of tags nowadays...

My 5 addictions.

Coffee - Cant live without. I`ve already told this. Caffeine is like nicotine.

Music - Puts me to sleep on sleepless nights. Sleep is divine, something which brings sleep to us is godlike.

Television - Keeps the mind blank. Doesn't allow me think. Which happens to help me a bit.

Office - Yes you all know that I am a workaholic. I stay at office at least to play ping pong. I`m just addicted to this place.

Movies - I watch all kinds of it. Even the crappy ones. But the good thing is, I know a crappy one when I see one.

Thats it!
Now I tag reni and vignesh.

Rampi Says...

People, relationships, career and money are part of our lives. We can lose them for life, but not lose life for them.

Enemies of Time...

Time is something which is far superior than anything in the universe. If you believe in god, time is more powerful. Time can be good and bad. It can kill and heal. We are fighting time. We want it to go back, but it wont. We want the time to be fair to him, us and them, but it wasn't and it is not. We are fighting it with all our strength and power. The time is not fighting back, I stays still, giving us excruciating pain. But we continue fighting, we will fight till the end of our lives.

We are fighting, we know that. I realize that when I give up my cot for mohit to sit and study; when I hug mols after he comes out of the kitchen praying, when I stand there at the door of his room and watch sriram sleeping, at the same place where he had slept a week ago; it was a week, and week is time, we are fighting time. We don't pray blindly asking him to come back. Its not fair to get over it and forget it. Its not a break up. It gives a reason to be normal for sometime and cry, it is something which we have to learn living with. It is something like a deadly disease which will never leave us, we will eventually die of it, but we will live with it. We and all of us who knew him will have to live with it.

The incident hasnt taken away my belief in god. It just has strengthened my unbelief in god. Our fight will continue.

For your information : Ravi, my roommate had gone to hampi with his office colleagues on Friday. On Sunday morning, when he tried to take a bath in the tungabatra river, he got washed away by the current of the river. People around tried to save him, but he got drowned. We weren’t able to find his body till Monday evening. His parents had arrived there and the formalities and the cremation was done at hampi only.

R.I.P - Ravi

Tagged, Whatever!

About the tagger: This tag was from kenneth. How can I miss this? moreover, its a good way to think about something else.
Aw crap, your iPod’s jammed on one song! And you won’t be able to get it fixed for a week! What song do you hope to christ it’s stuck on?
Pink Floyd - Shine on you crazy diamond.
You learn that your new cable package has the Anytime Movie Channel! Which movie do you immediately flick to?
Certainly Anbe Sivam.
You walk in the front door and smell dinner cooking! What makes you go, “Oooh, I like that!”?
I think it will be anything which mom makes.
What’s your favourite season?
The winter! I`d prefer it being snowing. I could go out without protection to feel the chill, the pain and then realize that I`m still alive.
What’s your favourite word?
NO.
And your least favourite?
YES.
If you could be anything in the world when you grow up, what would you be?
I`ve grown up already. And, I`m me.
What’s your pet peeve? C’mon, you can tell us! What makes you go, “ARGH!!!!”?
People talking.
And finally… Which celeb makes you go all fluttery and swoony whenever you see a picture of them?
None. I dont allow anyone else other than myself to make me go all fluttery and swoony.
Great! Now it’s your turn to tag some of your friends for this thing!
I guess I have to... reni and vignesh.

How does it feel?...

I`m 22, still a single, certified workaholic, favorite employee for the boss, no life what-so-ever and a loser in the making. I cant do much about being 22. I`m a single, and I have a excuse, which is "I cant tolerate dumbness". Workaholic - I have to work hard against it; since that also involves working, I`m not inclined towards it. Favorite employee for the boss, I had to answer a lot of peoples' question of how "I" can make such impressions on people. The easy answer was, that he is a bigger moron than I am. No life, hm mm... . A loser in the making; summarizes the whole scenario!

I`m a dead man walking. I hate what I`m doing, but still I`m doing it. To make it sound more stinging, I am addicted to do what I`m doing. Though I wish I could work like this for something which makes more sense than an organisation getting more money out of it. People keep on congratulating me for becoming a sadistic moron(though the guy in my room wont approve of it) or my success at work. Its really a sad story, that I`m sitting in my office on a lovely september bangalore afternoon on a saturday. And as I think about all this, a song echos in my brain...

Bob Dylan:
How does it feel?
How does it feel?
to be on your own...
with no direction home...
like a complete unknown...
like a rolling stone...

It does result in a feeling. A feeling in my stomach. A kind of feeling in which things from my head are running down to my stomach. It between good and bad; awkward.

The Rat Race

It was a cold evening. I was wearing my jacket. It had rained that afternoon, so road was wet. I was listening to Lucky ali - Yeh Dil Deewana hai. I was engrossed to the song that i totally forgot that I hadn't moved an inch for about 5 minutes. When i did realize, I wondered, why it was so abnormal. I hadn't seen that kind of a traffic congestion in a lifetime. Why was it so weird and irritating? I dint realize. It was 7:15 in the evening. Thats when I realized, that was the 1st time in about 5 to 6 months, that I had left office on a week day, "that" early. And, Bangalore was bound to have that kind of traffic at that time.

I had been working my ass out for that long. I`ve never imagined myself working that much. To be very honest, no one ever has imagined "me" work that hard. Not that I have some time for myself, I`m planning to study something and go ahead with life. I've been telling people, with an evil look that, I want more money. And, I`ve been willing to do anything for it. I cant believe I also am falling into the shell of earning money, wanting more, getting more and still wanting more. The life, the professional life, has not given the openings for me to do what i want to do. And, to point out the mistakes i did, I very, very lately realised what i want to do. I`ve become a serious contender in the Rat Race.

Rampi Says...

Motivation never seem to come from the hard working person you like or who is your friend. It rather comes from a person whom you dont admire, when he/she rises to a greater level. *

*It has made me start studying for Gmat again.